Spiritual Attack

That's what this crush is - a spiritual attack.

I have no reason to feel this way, nor do I want to feel this way. These feelings are not from the Lord. Satan on the other hand, loves to discourage and distract believers.

I shouldn't be surprised. Leaving my comfort zone not only leaves me vulnerable to others, but to the evil one as well. The higher I exalt Christ, the better target I become. God has created me to be a wife for someone, someone whose burden for His kingdom mirrors my own. Satan would like me to believe that God has forgotten me or that there must be something wrong with me because he isn't interested. Or worse yet that I'm confused about the burden God has given me. These are all lies from the Father of Lies and yet I'm more likely to be upset with the Lord than to stand firm and place the blame where it truly belongs.

This is a spirtual attack and the Lord has given me every piece of armour I need to stand firm until He grants me victory.

10Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. 12For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. ( Ephesians 6:10-12)

8Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 9Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings.
10And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. 11To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen. (1 Peter 5:8-10)